went back to ahs to bai nian to lee lao shi on monday. seems a bit lagging to post these photos up only now, but i had no mood.

i guess it is good that we are still going back 5 years after graduating, but something feels different. the places where we once took funny photos and left fond memories are no longer there. the newer bigger building doesn't make an impact on me, except that they highlight the fact that time has passed.


perhaps nostalgia has to do with all things old. perhaps in our memory, we tend to beautify things, but i really don't believe the ahs now is the ahs then, the ahs still in my heart.

well, i had no time to online, and hence no time to blog. supposed to be taking a nap now, but i shall forsake my sleep to blog first. =p

the photos from the chalet are here! that was on 20 Jan, and as the photos will tell, we only did like two things. steamboat and mahjong. haha and i lost money!! hong was the biggest winner of about $15. 3 tables you know!



and of course, our yearly gatherings are so few that we always have to take group photos! weili said cny if never come my house, doesn't feel like cny =)





more pics coming up if i can get the people to send me. attended wenjin's birthday party at his house on sat, a rowdy noisy day with a hilarious present opening session=p

lastly, i had a happy dinner yesterday!!! simple and comfortable. =D

if meeting means having to quarrel, i'd rather not meet. don't want the good mood to be spoilt. is it that cause we're closer, that's why we have higher expectations of each other, and hence get irritated more easily?

830 lesson tonight! oh god! holidays!!! finally here!!!

how was your chinese new year?=)

had a nice gathering at the punggol point chalet with the 2b people on tues. lost some money at mahjong but it was good seeing them again=D

term break is coming soon! yay! although tonnes of work are awaiting..

there are occasions when most people would be sticklers for tradition and custom. chinese new year would definitely qualify as one of those.

a time for reunion, a time to clean the house, a time to wish people well, and be blessed. a time to visit relatives, known and unknown.

had reunion dinner today with my paternal grandma. the moment i peered in through the gate, my jaw dropped. hesitation, no one wanted to walk through the door first. then uncertainty, i had to think for a moment to get the sound of that one word right, it's been so long.

8 years? or 10? childhood cousins who i used to play with, i can now barely recognise. sitting there together on the floor, i've got nothing to say, and nothing i wanted to say. didn't get a good look, but one look was enough to know that things have changed.

they weren't the little mischievous boys they used to be, now much taller and muscled. the glint in the eyes is still there, but manifesting itself in a way that makes me want to avoid, like the bengs on the street. mannerisms have changed, to the point i feel uncomfortable, as if it is suddenly acquired.

hearing ahma recount the past allowed me an insight into what my family is made of. made me realise that i was born lucky, into a family that had a good foundation, and who kept me upright and moral. showed me that you can never tell what's going on behind walls in every family.

a rather solemn post, but i lok forward to a great Chinese New Year ahead.=)

Happy CNY people, and have a good time!

i like to see the battery bar when my handphone's charging. the little hearts make it seem like my love meter is also recharging. =)

i want to have a rest to recharge. anywhere away from school would be all i ask. anywhere away from home would be a bonus, even the comfort of the familiar surroundings can be oppressive at times.

but i don't dare go into johor, my nearest abroad destination. haha so i shall aim for places like the zoo! please let tomorrow's test be ok, and then chinese new year celebrations can begin!

i'm home at 7pm, and they actually asked me, why are you not out? =.= bored to death today. wanted to go out, but there was some part of me that wouldn't be satisfied with waiting.

happy valentine to all my dears and darlings. =)

i imagine if i post up a picture of any guy and me right now, people will immediately assume he's my boyfriend. big day for couples tomorrow! but a few couples i know aren't celebrating..good! don't celebrate just cause other people do so!

passed hong her overdue love letter today, and she say i mushy. wah lao. don't know how to appreciate. haha =p wanted to gao lang man tomorrow, but too cash-strapped. nevermind. my beloveds know i love them!

sucky week, bad timing for tests. i'm already in the cny mood. beyond hope and redemption.

have a good week ahead people!

it must be due to the spring cleaning.. now i'm in the mood for chinese new year, and i can't believe there's still one more week!! and two tests next week. help me someone. now i cant even go out on valentine's day. grr. when there's two girls i'd love to meet.

school drains everyone.

cried almost a litre of tears, if not at least half. but it made me more resolute in continuing forward.

will the school stop piling on work? haiz.. CNY come faster!!

detached and committed, i can't really do both. there's always going to be something bugging me at the back of my mind, disturbing me.

close to my breaking point. wrong things at wrong time, i'm too tired to even bother to explain. slowly being sucked empty. kinda detached, in the end nothing but a shell.

kindly refrain from asking.

must it keep happening, till the day your grip tears me away from my boy, and deem me single? what makes you think i don't know what you're concerned about, what you wish for me? but i cant always satisfy both sides. and i don't ever wanna hear the words, what other people will think if i do such or such a thing. i don't see anything wrong if i stay a few hours after school at his house. i don't see why you want to restrict me based on what other people might think. if you think that's protection, maybe you should know that i don't need it. maybe the tighter you grip, the further i'll run. what makes you think i don't know that i may be imposing? the times you see are the times you judge me. what about the times you don't see? don't they count for something? you're being judgmental and unfair.

sore throat, refuse to cry. onslaught of work, plus your over-rated concern is really too much. i snapped cause you touched a nerve, i'm short on sleep, short on time, no point hearing you say something that i already know. after all, the things you say all lead in one direction. oppressing my freedom, even though you claim contrary.

i know your intentions are for my good. and i'm not mad at you. just irritated that you don't understand. do you know the times we quarreled cause i spared a thought for you and wanted to come home early?

my tears still fell in the end. 没家教，不懂得矜持。hey mom, fyi it hurts.

i'd rather you not say anything. it makes things worse when you do that.

do you think i need you to constantly remind me that i'm a girl, and i supposedly have some dignity issues to uphold? don't you think you would have drilled it well into my head after 20 years?

guess what, hearing any more of the same stuff just irks me. and it only makes me think, guys have it easy.

再多几个这样的日子，我的心都不知道要放哪里好。

it's nice to know i'm loved by my girls.=)

having you around makes everything a tad more bearable. grateful, but thanks doesnt seem to be able to do it. so i can only reciprocate by being there every time you need me.

just when i thought i had recovered from my sleep debt, it's another week ahead. sleep tight and sleep early people. the night is not long enough.

The capabilities of my tech comm group members is astounding. and it makes me pale so much in comparison. the depth and detail they go in their research is really truly not anything i've seen before. well, at least the group marks will be high. haha just have to see about my individual marks =p

slept almost 12 hours straight. gosh, i'm exhausted, and there's so much to do over the weekend!

if you really become popular, i'll fight. haha